Friday, February 29, 2008

The Reality of My Real Life..

Okay, so here it is the real scoop. I'm now trying to live back in Arizona. I'm staying with my dad. Of course my three kids are here too.
You know, when you are blogging about your personal life, you really don't want people to see all the realness to your personal life, so you put how wonderful everything really is. It's not always so wonderful. Im not always the best mom, Ron well, and the kids, they have their days too.

So, from now on, I won't be mud slinging anything, just know, Most of you, who are personal friends, know my reality and my world. Thanks for being by my side and helping when and where you could.

There are others of you who refuse to admit when things are wrong. I was one of those. No More.... Reality is here and now. So for those of you, who refuse to see reality and help those in need of help, Im sorry but maybe you need to get help too.

The kids are doing great. They are going to school, and Lil Ronnie is reading at a 4th grade level even though he is in 2nd grade. He has been playing basketball daily with his grandpa. He loves it. Although he's a shorty, like me, he may be great someday.

Shelby loves her teacher and her friends. She remembers most of them from before we had to go to Silver City. She has everyone wanting to share her time, and she has a great personality.

Lacy is doing great too. She really wants to go to school, but wont be 5 until July. So next year, The real freedom sets in. LOL She is quite the character with a mind of her own.

Life won't be any easier as I embark on single life. However I have many people who are out there for me. I have family and friends, who have been around my life long enough to get to know the real me. They are there for me. Thank you....

Some day, when my heart heals, and I decide Men aren't so bad, I might find Prince Charming. That would really mean, he would have to be someone ready to step up to the plate and take charge of life. I'm done being in charge. Its' like the song by Carrie Underwood, JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL, Im ready to move on to better things. Or like her other song, WASTED.

This isn't anything new. This life. Im just finally realizing what needs to be done. I refuse to be an enabler. People need to be responsible for their actions and decisions and quit blaming others. Like I said, Step up and take charge. And OMGoodness, be honest about it too. Don't fool yourself into thinking otherwise.

Anyways, If you read any of my other blogs, you'll only be reading the whipped cream. Im not the kind to sling mud. like I said. So, those of you who know, thanks for being by my side. Those of you don't know, don't ask me. Im not telling.

And if you tell me you'll be there for me and then you aren't, well, I guess that would be okay, but don't expect me to be excited about it. I don't want to play games with my life anymore. There will be time for play and time for fun, and time for serious things too.

I can't believe it is already March. This year is going by so fast. Country Thunder is coming up, and then summer and then it will be fall again, and well, This is a big year. Lots of changes. And that's okay.

Like sponge bob says, "I'm ready, I'm ready...." By the way, you can look on "my space" to see me too. You'd be suprised who you will find or meet there. But be careful. There are tricky people out there. Have a great day. Maybe a great March, if I don't get back on here in a while.... Did I mention how hot Az is?